Sunday, May 23, 2010

Forever After

I finally watched Shrek Forever After.

I don't know if it's just me or it is really the publication's problem, but I really didn't hear much about this movie.
I mean, with Shrek, Shrek 2, and Shrek The Third, the publication went crazy. The teasers and trailers were everywhere and everyone was talking about them. Even people who were not big fans of cartoon turned into Shrek's biggest fans.
Shrek was phenomenal. Many city was painted green, as it is the main color of the movie. Shrek's ears became one of the cutest hair/head accessories. and when Puss in Boots was introduced, not one single person could avoid the teary-but-very-cute huge eyes. Even I tried to deny that I was "aww"-ing when I watched him the first time. Plus the twisted stories and the way they mixed all fairy tales altogether were the smartest yet the funniest thing a cartoon has ever done.

But this last chapter of Shrek was kept shockingly quiet.
I mean, I didn't know that the movie was premiered on May 21st.
Sure I heard about there would be the last chapter right when Shrek The Third was still a hot topic, but I didn't hear anything about the filming, the way the story was build, or any other behind the scenes stuff.
I was watching TV one day and surprised by the movie promotion.
How come I haven't heard anything about Shrek Forever After before? Maybe I had been living under a huge rock, or something.

So anyway. I finally got to watch it.
My reaction was: FLAT.

I mean, sure, it was funny.
Man, when you heard Donkey (aka Eddie Murphy) sings various songs stupidly and out of tune, how can you not laugh?
and sure it was all cute.
How can you resist the Farkle, Fergus, and Felicia?
Or the fat version of Puss in Boots? the slim Puss in Boots is very cute, the fat version is like way cute-er and funnier.

But other than that, the story was too straight forward.
There was no twist.
It was too predictable.
and it was FLAT.

I mean, did you predict that Donkey was gonna marry the dragon?
did you predict there was actually a Prince Charming who was willing to rescue Fiona?
Did you predict that Fiona choose to be an ogre instead of the pretty little princess?
I didn't.

In Shrek Forever After, I knew that Shrek was gonna be depressed.
I knew that Shrek was gonna screw his own life.
I knew that Shrek will fall back in love with Fiona, and they will kiss, and every bad thing was almost like a dream.

I have nothing against DreamWorks Animation or Paramount Pictures, but I think those guys should move on.
We've had enough Shrek.
We had great laughs, we cried, we shrieked, and we aww-ed together.
We are now ready for the next best thing besides Shrek.
Let Shrek and Fiona take care of Farkle, Fergus, and Felicia in their own muddy paradise.
Give us something new. Maybe some troll or yeti, or some other cool things that you have in mind.
We are ready to get over Shrek.
and we are waiting.

p.s. why was I hallucinating while watching the movie and felt that Mike Meyer has British accent? He was born in Canada and work in the States. and I didn't catch the British accent in the three previous movie.

Saturday, May 22, 2010


As I wrote on my last post.
I am giving you now another very cool song.

The song has great lyrics, great rap, great chorus, and great singers.
here's the lyrics!

Travie McCoy feat. Bruno Mars - Billionaire
[Bruno Mars]
I wanna be a billionaire so fuckin' bad.
Buy all of the things I never had.
I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine,
Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen.

Oh every time I close my eyes,
I see my name in shiny lights.
Yeahh, a different city every night.
Oh I - I swear, the world better prepare for when I'm a billionaire.

[Travis "Travie" McCoy]
Yeah I would have a show like Oprah.
I would be the host of, everyday Christmas.
Give Travie a wish list.
I'd probably pull an Angelina and Brad Pitt,
And adopt a bunch of babies that ain't never had sh-t!
Give away a few Mercedes like here lady have this,
And last but not least grant somebody their last wish.
Its been a couple months since I've single so,
You can call me Travie Claus minus the Ho Ho.
Haa, get it?
I'd probably visit where Katrina hit,
And damn sure do a lot more than FEMA did.
Yeah can't forget about me stupid,
Everywhere I go Imma have my own theme music.

Oh every time I close my eyes,
(what chu see, what chu see bro?)
I see my name in shiny lights.
(uh huh).
Ahh, yeah yeah.
(what else?)
A different city every night.
Oh I - I swear, the world better prepare..
(for what?)
For when I'm a billionaire.
Oh oooh oh oooh,
(Sing it)
When I'm a Billionaire.
Oh oooh oh oooh.
(let's go)

[Travis "Travie" McCoy]
I'll be playing basketball with the President,
Dunking on his delegates.
Then I'll compliment him on his political etiquette.
Toss a couple milli in the air just for the heck of it.
But keep the fives, twentys, tens in bins completely separate.
Yeah I'll be in a whole new tax bracket.
We in recession but let me take a crack at it.
I'll probably take whatevers left and just split it up.
So everybody that I love can have a couple bucks.
And, not a single tummy around me would know what hungry was.
Eating good, sleeping soundly.
I know we all have a similar dream.
Go in your pocket, pull out your wallet,put it in the air and sing..

[Bruno Mars]
I wanna be a billionaire so frickin' bad.
(So bad)
Buy all of the things I never had.
(Buy everything, haa)
I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine.
Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen.
(What up Oprah? Haaa!)

Oh every time I close my eyes,
(what chu see, what chu see bro?)
I see my name in shiny lights.
(uh huh).
Ahh, yeah yeah.
(what else?)
A different city every night.
Oh (yeah yeah yeah)
I - I swear, the world better prepare..
(for what?)
For when I'm a billionaire.
Oh oooh oh oooh,
(Sing it)
When I'm a Billionaire.
Oh oooh oh oooh.

I wanna be a billionaire
(uh huh)
so frickin' bad!

The sentences in bold are the funniest/smartest lyrics in this song.
Well, listen to the song and let the song speak for itself to you!

here's the cool video clip.
It's cool because it tells the story of the song. It's not only the singers play the song, but it is telling something. that's the way I like it.

and here's another one.
It's an acoustic version of the song.
extremely cool!

Plus who the heck doesn't want to be a billionaire so freaking bad?
not me!

p.s. More about Travie McCoy, which is actually the lead singer of Gym Class Heroes (one of the bands that I like, thanks to my lil' sister)
and more about (my current most favorite guy) Bruno Mars

Friday, May 21, 2010

Nothin' On You - B.o.B feat. Bruno Mars

[Chorus- Bruno Mars] (B.o.B)
Beautiful girls all over the world, I could be chasing
But my time would be wasted, they got nothing on you, baby
Nothing on you, baby
They might say hi, and I might say hey
But you shouldn't worry, about what they say
'Cause they got nothing on you, baby (Yeah)
Nothing on you, baby (N-n-n-nothing on you baby, n-nothing on you)

[Verse 1- B.o.B]
I know you feel where I'm coming from
Regardless of the things in my past that I've done
Most of it really was for the hell of the fun
On a carousel, so around I spun
With no direction, just tryna get some
Tryna chase skirts, living in the summer sun
And so I lost more than I had ever won
And honestly, I ended up with none

[Bridge- Bruno Mars]
It's so much nonsense, it's on my conscience
I'm thinking "maybe I should get it out"
And I don't wanna sound redundant
But I was wondering, if there was something that you wanna know
But never mind that, we should let it go
Cause we don't wanna be a TV episode
And all the bad thoughts, just let ;em go, go, go


[Verse 2- B.o.B]
Hands down, there will never be another one (nope)
I've been around, and I've never seen another one (never)
Because your style, I ain't really got nothin' on (nothing)
And you wild when you ain't got nothin' on? (haha)
Baby you the whole package
Plus you pay your taxes
And you keep it real, while them others stay plastic
You're my Wonder Woman, call me Mr. Fantastic
Stop- now think about it

[Bridge 2- B.o.B.]
I've been to London, I've been to Paris
Even way out there in Tokyo
Back home down in Georgia, to New Orleans
But you always steal the show
And just like that girl, you got me froze
Like a Nintendo 64
If you never knew, well, now you know, know, know


[Bridge 3- B.o.B]
Everywhere I go, I'm always hearing your name
And no matter where I'm at, girl you make me wanna sing
Whether a bus or a plane, or a car, or a train
No other girl's on my brain, and you the one to blame


Yeah (laughing)
And that's just how we do it (laughing)
And I'ma just let this ride
And Bruno Mars

I am so in love with this song.
I can't say anything else.
I just love it.

I would really kill for a guy written in this song.
Very nicely described.

Plus the video clip is stunning.
The song is about love and girls and everything else in between.
In any other Rap video clip, the video would be full of guys kissing girls in bikini costumes.
In other words, it would be arousing and pornographic.
But this song's video clip is not arousing, let alone pornographic.

It really makes me wonder about both B.o.B and Bruno Mars.
from here, I found out that B.oB was born in 1988!
and to fulfill your need about B.o.B, go here.
And Bruno Mars is actually a very talented writer!
from here, I learned that he co-wrote this song, Billionaire by Travie McCoy (which I also really like and will soon write about it!), and Right Round by Flo-Rida.
If you wish to enjoy more songs from Bruno Mars, go here!

and at last.
I give you the very cool and well-mannered video of this song!

Robin Hood

As today was my last exam in ITB ever (I hope, at least), I went out to celebrate it.
I'm exaggerating. I know. LOL

I went to watch Robin Hood and it was weird.
I'm not saying it's bad. I'm also not saying that it's good.
It was just an okay movie for me.

Yesterday, before watching it, I was eavesdropping to my friends conversation about this movie. they said it was bad and the weird thing was that there was no story about the Robin Hood legendary in it.
I didn't say anything because I wanted to watched this movie so I was preparing myself to get wowed by it.

It turned out that what I heard was true.
There was no story about the legend itself.
Sure Robin Hood did robbed a handful of people carrying bags corn seeds and stuff, but it wasn't his regular job.
The movie was like a prolog before the real legend.
So there's gonna be Robin Hood 2, 3, 4, etc.

somethings that bothered me in the movie were:
1. Cate Blanchett and Russell Crowe both look very old. and when they kiss, I felt disgust. Old people kissing are just yuckie for me.
2. Too much drama. It felt that they can't decide whether this movie should be funny, dramatic, sad, or full of action.
3. Too much conflicts, too long of a story. In the middle of the movie, when the intensity of the movie was brought down, I thought it was the anti climax and the movie would end soon. I looked at my watch, and the movie was only running for an hour.
4. The scenes at sea looked really fake. I mean, really. The wave, the multiple ships, they all looked too animated.

Some stuff that I really like from this movie:
1. The English. Although I couldn't catch word by word because that 'modern' English (my English teacher back in Canada said the 'modern' English started from Shakespearean forward) was just too complicated, I really like it. I felt that's the way the British should really speak.
2. The landscape. Seriously. where did they film this movie? some of the sceneries are breath-taking!
3. The medieval bomb. It looked like a bag of burned ammunition. very stoned, which is pretty cool.

Anyway, I guess this movie would be very interesting for Robin Hood die-hard fans.
But I think this movie is still worth watching for everyone that like this medieval settings kind of movie.
Plus, don't you wanna know the type of movie that wasn't able to crushed down Iron Man 2 on its first weekend box office opening? hehehe

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Teman Baik (Bagian 8)

Kalau ada yang bilang ada orang yang gak butuh sebuah geng untuk hidup. Menurut aku, orang itu bohong banget!
Bahkan nerd yang suka di-bully di film-film itu aja butuh sebuah geng nerd untuk bisa hidup dengan tenang.

Di kehidupan aku sendiri, aku udah punya banyak banget geng. Susah juga kalo diinget-inget aku mulai merasakan kebutuhan untuk nge-geng kapan. Bahkan waktu SD pun kayaknya aku udah nge-geng.
Tapi ya geng-geng-an yang serius aku jalanin baru SMA kelas 1 kayaknya. Waktu itu kerasa banget kebutuhan nge-geng-nya soalnya aku bener-bener tinggal sendiri, cuma sama pembantu doang. Setelah itu, geng aku selalu gonta-ganti berdasarkan kelas.

Nah, semenjak masuk ITB, aku juga punya beberapa geng. Yang paling bertahan lama ya geng 8EH karena kita udah kayak keluarga dan geng aku yang ada di bawah ini.

Buat yang belum tau, aku kan kuliah di Teknik Lingkungan, yang perbandingan antara cowok dan ceweknya 1:3. Secara otomatis, semenjak hari pertama seluruh mahasiswa di jurusan aku bertemu, kami sudah berkumpul secara berkelompok-kelompok.
Yang lucu, diawal pertemuan kami seangkatan ini dulu, banyak sekali orang-orang yang ngeyel dan memaksa untuk menutup-nutupi adanya geng-geng-an ini. Sekarang, setelah tingkat empat, orang-orang yang dulu ngeyel itu udah menyerah karena udah ketauan, mana temen-temen yang emang bisa diandalkan, mana temen-temen yang cukup sekedar kenal aja, tanpa ada ikatan apa-apa.

Cewek-cewek yang ada difoto diatas adalah teman-teman yang bisa aku andalkan diberbagai macam kesempatan. Mereka temen se-geng aku selama aku berkuliah di TL ITB.
Perkenalan dulu.
Berdiri (kiri-kanan): Ravina Rukmina Binol, Aini Rinarti, Irna Rahmaniar, Liana Nur Fajar (Lele), Serli Nawangsari Rahayu, Aliendheasja Fawilia
Duduk (kiri-kanan): Sara Chastelya Moschata, Fatimah Kamila (Mila), Dena Sismaraini, Annisa Nurfitri (Icha)

Aku sebenarnya gak terlalu ingat bagaimana cara kami semua ketemu dan bisa dekat.
Tapi intinya begini:
1. Aku, Icha, dan Mila udah se-geng sejak tingkat pertama di ITB. Rumah mereka yang searah sama rumahku membuat kami bertiga (hampir) selalu pergi dan pulang kuliah bareng.
2. Serli juga ternyata tinggal searang dengan rumahku, jadi dia pun (hampir) selalu pergi dan pulang kuliah bersama kami.
3. Selain waktu tingat pertama aku sekelas sama Icha dan Mila, aku juga sekelas sama Aini dan Irna (Aini dan Irna udah segeng sejak SMA). Walaupun dulu kami gak tergabung dalam geng yang sama, setelah di TL kami jadi melebur dalam satu geng.
4. Icha, Mila, Dena, dan Lele dulu tergabung dalam satu unit kegiatan, marching band. Walaupun satu per satu mereka keluar dari unit tersebut (Dena yang bertahan paling lama), pertemanan mereka tetep jalan.
5. Dena, Lele, dan Ravina udah segeng sejak tingkat pertama.
6. Aku, Sara, dan Ravina sama-sama di 8EH.

Ini adalah hal-hal yang sering kami lakukan segeng:
1. Makan siang bareng. di tingkat dua dan tiga, kami sering banget makan siang bareng. dulu, yang lain belum pada bawa mobil ke kampus, mobil aku sering banget dianiaya buat mengangkut lebih dari 5 orang.
2. Sekelompok dalam berbagai mata kuliah. Kalau ada mata kuliah yang ada tugas kelompoknya, kita sering banget sekelompok. Mungkin gak semuanya dalam satu kelompok, tapi sering banget deh pokoknya.
3. Belajar bareng. Aku biasanya orang yang paling sering bolos dalam kegiatan ini, soalnya aku males. tapi kita emang sering banget belajar bareng, terutama saat ujian.

Keliatan kan, sebenarnya kegiatan kami bersama gak banyak juga. Tapi karena kami secara intensif bertemu setiap hari di kampus, kami jadi sangat dekat satu sama lain.

Tentu saja tidak semua hal aku ceritakan pada mereka. Tentu saja ada berbagai macam hal yang gak aku suka sama mereka.
Nih ya, mereka tuh emang pinter-pinter banget di kelas. rajin pula. cuma mereka bisa jadi sangat gak peduli tentang apa yang terjadi di dunia ini, hal itu bikin kesel aku banget.
Mereka juga kadang suka lambat memroses sesuatu. Kadang kalau kita sedang menggosipkan sesuatu, pasti ada aja yang ketinggalan dan gosipnya harus diulang-ulang.
Dan masih banyak lagi hal-hal yang gak aku suka dari mereka.

Tapi mereka itu selalu siap membantu di berbagai macam kondisi.
Mereka sabar ngedengerin cerita-cerita aku.
Mereka siap ngajarin aku yang bego dalam hal akademik ini.
Mereka mengerti aku dan berbagai macam keadaan aku.

Pertemanan kita juga kayak yang tulus gitu. Kalau kita gak suka, kita selalu bilang. Kalau kita kesel, kita selalu bilang. Udah gak ada beban aja buat mengejek satu sama lain. Gak ada yang bisa kesel kita satu sama lain karena masalahnya langsung diomongin saat itu juga.
Yang paling seru kalo kita lagi barengan itu, kita ketawa melulu. Walaupun kebanyakan kita ketawa karena kita menertawakan kebodohan satu sama lain, tapi kita ketawa. kita seneng gitu kalo lagi barengan.
Serunya lagi tuh di pertemanan kita tuh gak ada deh drama-drama-an.
Gak ada yang ngomongin kejelekan salah satu dari kita ke orang lain, gak ada yang rebutan pacar, gak ada yang nilep duit, gak ada yang aneh-aneh deh.
Menurut aku hubungan di dalam geng kita adalah hubungan yang seharusnya dimiliki oleh semua geng anak sekolahan. Gak ribet sama masalah-masalah hidup yang belum selayaknya kita dapat.

Walaupun kita gak selalu suka hal yang sama, kita dapet aja celah yang bisa membuat kita selalu barengan.
Sama Sara dan Ravina sih gak usah ditanya, kita bertiga udah deket banget.
Aini yang kekanak-kanakan kadang bisa ngejawab pertanyaan sama jawaban-jawaban yang gak pernah kepikiran sama aku.
Sama Mila aku mungkin susah nyari topik pembicaraan selain masalah akademik, tapi setiap ketemu Mila aku bawaannya pengen meluk aja.
Lele punya suara yang tinggi dan suka terlalu keukeuh sama apa yang dia pengenin, tapi kalo gak ada yang berantem sama Lele kayak ada yang kurang aja.
Irna suka bohong soal akademik (sok bilang gak bisa dan pada akhirnya dapet nilai yang bagus), tapi Irna setia mendengarkan aku cerita macem-macem.
Dena yang rajinnya keterlaluan dan cewek banget aja bisa menghadapi aku yang gak sabaran, malahan tahan TA bareng sama aku.
Icha kadang suka terlalu banyak pertimbangan dan agak ragu-ragu tapi kita punya banyak banget hal sama yang kita suka.
Serli suka takut ngerjain sesuatu masih sabar aja tuh walaupun sering aku marah-marahin.

Mengingat banyak dari kita yang bakalan lulus Bulan Juli ini, aku jadi agak sedih deh.
Susah loh nyari teman tanpa beban seperti mereka-mereka ini.
Mereka gak pernah menuntut apa-apa dari aku (palingan mereka suka menuntut biar aku lebih rajin dan lebih religius), mereka kayak menerima aku apa adanya.
Gak kebayang sebentar lagi kita bakalan misah dan bakalan punya temen geng baru.

Semoga kalau nanti kita punya temen segeng baru, kita gak bakalan lupa sama geng kita ini ya, you girls!
Thank you for being such great friends!

Saturday, May 15, 2010


India.Arie could maybe write a song about how she was judged by her hair.
I could write so many things about how people judge me by my dad.

I really thought that writing this would be enough.
But it turned out that I was wrong.
Clearly, not very many people read my blog and I was to cocky about only writing this once.
So here I am, repeating words I said before.

but before I begin the whole point of this post, I will tell you the background story.
I was sitting in the classroom this morning, doing my exam, when my cell was ringing. I totally forgot to put it on silent mode.
I rejected the call and put my cell away.
To my surprise, the caller called back. I put it away again.
then the caller sent me a text.

The text said something like:
"Hi Alien. My name is XXX, majoring YYY, and I'm in the third year. I'm in the middle of situation here. I have to do an internship program for at least a month. there's some kind of problem with the company that I applied earlier, so I was thinking about doing it in your dad's company. What do you think? can you probably help me?"

If I were not in the middle of my final, I would definitely call her back and yell at her.

I mean, really? REALLY???
did someone just sent me a text like that???
I can't believe it myself!!!

First of all, I DON'T own the company where my dad works!
how would I supposed to know about the procedure of any internship program???

I also DON'T work there!
I'm finishing off my last year of university and I am NOT interested on working in the same company as my dad. how would I supposed to know about the procedure of any internship program???

I DON'T know about any procedures regarding any company's program!
how would I supposed to know about the procedure of any internship program???

Hell, I DON'T even live with my dad to ask him those questions!
If I want to know about any procedures, I HAVE TO call/sms/bbm my dad, which is the SAME step that everyone will have to do if they want to get a link to the company: calling someone who has 'power' to do something in the company.

Sure, I may accept some proposals asking for many for various campus activities.
It doesn't matter how lame the activities are, or how much I hate the people who's doing the activities, or how ridiculous the amount of money that they were asking, I usually accept the proposals and gave it to my dad.
That is a totally different situation!
with that, I was only acting as a messenger, or rather a courier. I gave the proposals to my dad and he (or whoever in charge for that) could decide whether they want to help or not.

But this time.
This time, that person went extremely ill-mannered.
Plus I DON'T know this person who texted me! WE HAVEN'T met!

Well, actually this posting was about one very impolite committee.
There was one committee who held a very lame campus activity and was asking the company for some help. One day before the actual celebration day, one of the committee members asked me whether my dad can come for the celebration or not.
I blew it on them right then and there.
I yelled at the committee, trying to explain that my dad and I are two different people. If you need my dad, you should ask him yourself. Almost everyone on the top positions in that committee called me to say sorry. Some of them finally got it after a thousand phone call.

And now, I have to be bothered by a much stupider and ill-mannered person!

How many times do I have to say that my dad and I are two different people???
I can't answer all questions that everyone asked me about the company.
I DON'T OWN THE COMPANY, for god's sake!

Seriously people.
I am NOT my dad!
I DON'T work for my dad's company!
I have no authorization whatsoever towards any company's decision!

STOP bothering me with all your questions and money needs!
Take care of your own business!
Try using the 'clean' path sometimes!
Don't even think about me as an easy shortcut some problems that you're facing!



Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Movie Marathon

I was wondering around on Sunday when Tomo asked me to go for a movie the next day.
I asked some people around, it turned out only Denny and Sara that were interested to go with us. So we ended up going to movies together.
But this previous beginning of the week is not an ordinary movie watching routine. It was something else. It was a marathon.

I watched three movies in two days.
what do you say to that?
in the beginning of final exams week.
We are indeed crazy.
Anyway, I'm here to talk about the movies.

I didn't know what the movie was about. I just heard that it's supposed to be funny.
Sitting in the cinema, I was shocked to hear so many F-word yelled in it.
Though the movie was funny, very funny indeed, it was very nasty.
Sure my friends and I now have some jokes to laugh around (i.e. "I'm gonna stab you with this fork!"), but really I don't think the movie was worth the money.
I mean, you don't have to go to the movie to hear that many of F-word. It's like an article they used in every single sentence.
Plus the story was super duper lame. There's a hot tube that is also a time machine. what do you expect from it???
So my advice, do not watch it in the movie. Rent the dvd later, or heck, buy the piracy one. you won't miss anything.

This movie is fairly weird.
So there was a girl who was desperately looking for love and when she finally found someone, it turned out that he couldn't return the feeling.
It was a funny love story, but there are some parts of it that felt like I was watching a comic, or cartoon. Many exaggerating scenes where the lead actress express herself and all.
Weird or not, it successfully made me laugh. No matter if it was too similar to cartoon, or in Tomo's words very similar to Indonesian movies.
Maybe, if I had understood Thai, it would be 1000 times funnier.
One thing that really bothers me after watching the movie, was the fact that the lead actor didn't come running to find the lead actress and tell her that he loves her. They just had to accidentally meet up on the train. It made me think that every guy in this world are jerks (aside from the gay ones), including the one in the movie or other fantasy land.

It was very eager to watch this movie. I mean George Clooney and Kevin Spacey were on it. Plus it was a movie by Jive and I have been enjoying many movies distributed by Jive. They have all the geek jokes and I really like them.
So I have some expectations, but it was rational ones.
It turned out, I had a good laugh at all the geek jokes.
But the story was very crappy. I mean, a bunch of hippies in the army?
and a military force that is based on the earth's natural power?
Come on! even I can write something better than that. (I probably can't. but you get my point.)
Plus George Clooney is further away with what you call handsome. He was as ugly as Hitler in this movie. You wouldn't even believe it.
When you think about watching it in the movie, think again. Especially if you're the kind of person who don't get any of the geek jokes. You'd better stay home, buy the piracy dvd, get friends who 'get' all the geek jokes and dark comedy, and enjoy yourself. Don't bother going to the cinema.

So there.
My movie marathon.
I considered it as a successful session, since I had good laughs and had a great times with my friends.
But trust me on the movie advice. You would not regret it!

Sunday, May 09, 2010

Extended Family

I come from a pretty big extended family.
My dad comes from a family of 12 children and 4 from my mom.
I have like countless cousins, nephews, and nieces.
I have no idea how many uncle and aunt I'm supposed to have.
I am overwhelmed by my own family.

To be honest, I am not a fan of my extended family, as I am an egocentric individualist.
Sure I like being with some of my cousins. they were a lot of fun. We could laugh, buy each other lunch, have many sleep over, and do so many things together.
But some of them are very unbearable to be alone with.

Take one of my cousins for example.
She came for a visit, one summer vacation.
The first few days that she was here with me and my family were okay. We talked and we were trying to catch up with whatever it is we lost in time.
When we went out with my parents, it's okay for me if my parents bought her stuff. from food to clothing. But when we went out, only the two of us and she still asked me to pay for whatever it was that she wanted, isn't it like a bit TOO MUCH?
So I ended up ditching her at home alone and I went out from dawn 'till dark with my friends.
I know that my father is financially more stable than any other person in my extended family, but that doesn't make me or my parents willing to spend all our money for them.

That was my one cousin.
Now, I am very annoyed with my other cousin.

So I have this one cousin that I was pretty close with, when I was small. We met only once in our childhood, but we constantly write to each other. There was always a competition between me and her. Back in elementary school, we both were still number one in our own classes (but I mean, who the heck are not the class number one, back in elementary?), and we bragged each other around with our marks and our knowledge. Until I got tired of her bragging around, back when I was in junior high school.
I still remember the situation. I was still up in the middle of the night when she called. Back then, internet was still new and we both just turn from little girls to big girls. So we talked about internet. I was telling her that I then have an email address, so we could email each other and not calling. I told her my email address and she gave me hers, which was "" (her real email address is censored, of course). That was when I realized that she didn't know anything and she was just bragging around to look cool. I mean, your email address with "www."??? man, how can you live your day and not humiliated?
And then we talked about our everyday lives, including pimples and acne. I was complaining about how my mom couldn't stop yelling about me not taking care of my face, how lazy I was (and still am) as a girl, etc, etc. And here she was, a junior high school girl, and she told me that if she ever get only one pimple on her face, she would miss one whole day of school because she couldn't handle the humiliation. That was when I felt our 'click' is actually switched off.

Last year, after all these years apart, she came for a visit.
I wasn't looking forward to meet up with her.
I mean, when you were at the age of 11-13 and you were bragging around like you know it all, plus you were obsessed with your look, don't you grow up to become a monster girl???
So when she first came, I met her, and I knew that I was doomed.
The first time she was here with her parents, my mom was asking me to be nice.
So I did. I took her out for a spin through the city, accompanying her to buy stuff (not paying for it!!!), and we even watched a movie together.
The next day, I thought what I did was enough so I planned to wake up late. that was when my mom called me on my cell and yelled about how impolite I was when I got company at my house. I dragged myself out and was trying my best to be nice.

It turned out that our parents talked and she would like to go for her master here, in Bandung, and she wanted to stay at my house. My mom agreed. Well, she asked me what I think about it, and what choice did I have rather than agreeing? As if!
So she stayed at my house now, from the beginning of this year until God-knows-when.

And I am so annoyed by her existence. So I come up with the list of why I hate my cousin.
Here they are:

1. She can't stop talking.
You basically can't tell her story without her telling you a much longer story. Example:
Me: "I am going to my campus."
Her: "Oh you're going now? I'm also gonna go to my campus. I have so many assignments that I have to do. I can't believe how much assignments that I'm having. I might stay at my friend's place until late at night. Is that okay with you? My friend's place is uptown, so it's closer to my campus and there will be a bunch of us, not only me. So I will be save, don't worry about me."
I just can't stand to hear her talking. It will hurt my ears.

2. She brags around like there's no tomorrow.
Her: "So tell me about your Canadian experience!"
Me: "Well, what do you wanna know? It was fun!"
Her: "Do you think you improved your English?"
Me: "Of course."
Her: "Oh... you know what I did before I came here? After I graduated, I taught English for a kindergarten and other small children. The place that I worked is owned by one lady that's very famous around the expatriates. Every time a tourist came to my city and they're not able to speak Bahasa Indonesia, they would come and look for my boss. She's so good with all these tourist. And her English is very good. When I was writing my thesis, I was asked to write the abstract in English, so I wrote mine and I asked her to proofread my writing. We talked a lot about it. She gave me a lot of point of view on writing my abstract. I now understand how to write in English more."

3. She wants to know everything about me.
Situation: I just got back home
Her: "Where have you been, coming back home at this late hour? Don't you worry? Are you okay driving home alone? What are you busy with anyway?"
Every time she asked those questions for me, I was hell ready to strangle her to death.

4. She feels very much like home at my own house.
Her: "hey come on! let's eat! The maid has done cooking. Have you had any dinner? It's calamari on the menu today!"
I couldn't believe her every time I heard her.

5. She still thinks she's Ms. Know-It-All
Her: "Hey, what you research paper is about?"
Me: "Waste."
Her: "Wow. Interesting. So what is it about? You managing them? you doing the 3R? I heard that there are a lot of ways to treat waste. Is it about the landfill? We also have landfill in my city. But we really should start living green right now, eh? the environment is very much damaged right now, because of waste."
Me: *silent and left her talking to herself alone*

6. Her fashion sense is very poor.
I don't know if it's because she's from the same city of Kangen Band (a very lame Indonesian band) or it's because she goes to one campus which filled with girls who care a lot about fashion but suck at it.
I should take a picture of her wearing the lamest thing a girl should ever wear. She once wear some kind of bolero made from artificial fur, all fluffy and big and white, in the hotness of Jakarta. I was so ready to laugh at her with my little sister.
Plus she wears too much make up all the time.
plus her hair is colored brown that looks very horrible.
I just can't stand to look at her. It will hurt my eyes.

So there. The short list of why I hate my cousin.
I could go on and on but I'm gonna loose my points.
I'm thinking about telling her how I feel, maybe not now, but someday.
Right now I'm talking one syllable words at home and trying my best to avoid her.

see, it's hard if you hate a family member.
With other people, you can hate a person and not see this person for the rest of your life.
But with family, you can't not see her again for the rest of your life.

It's a very good thing that I only have one sister which I really love.
not 12 like my dad or 4 like my mom.

Later in life, I wonder how I would act in front of my extended family.
Will I put on my poker face and eat that bitter pills and say that I love them, when I'm not?
Or will I say straight to their faces to stop bothering me?

Saturday, May 01, 2010


Many of my friends are having a hard time believing me on this one.
But it's true.

Okay, for my loyal reader, by now you may understand that I have this all-time-crush on some guy. The crush started back when I was in grade 10, high school. It lasted for a very long time, until the end of last year, for approximately 7 years.

My feelings toward him varies depend on the situations we went through.
The funny thing was that on the beginning of last year, I was really eager to open up to him about my feelings by the time he graduated. I just felt the urge to say how I felt about him, hoping that I might get a closure.
I wasn't sure what kind of closure I was expecting at that moment. Sure I wished that he would like-like me back. But I was also expecting him not saying anything and by that I could erase all my feelings toward him and move on. So I decided that I was gonna pour whatever feeling I've kept for those 7 years when he graduated and ready to move out of the city to work in another city. That was my plan in the beginning of last year.

As last year was passing by, there were a lot of changing plans in my life. This plan about my crush-life was part of it too.
The thing was, I felt like we didn't get any closer by the middle of the year. I was starting to felt shaky.
And then he got really busy with whatever he was busy in order to graduate. I felt that I was trying too hard to 'be there' for him when he didn't even notice that I existed. I was so down for one weekend after he implicitly rejected my being nice to him. So down that I was listening to every broken-hearted songs on my iPod and read the lyrics, word after word. I was pathetic.
When similar situation happened again toward the end of the year, I said to myself that this maybe the cue for me. Maybe all this stupid crush thingie has come to an end.
He knows that I exist, but in his mind I exist only as a person that he knows. There will be no future for us and I don't wanna ruin our awkward-enough friendship.
The point was that there was no point on telling him how I felt about him because he would not care.
So that was when my plan changed.

That was also when my friends could not believe me. It feels that they were the one who went through all these pointless crush on this guy.
I guess they're not believing in me was acceptable. After bitching around over one single guy for 7 years, it's hard to believe that I will finally end my bitchy-ness towards him. I guess most of them would miss my stupidity, because I tend to get extremely stupid around this guy.
and I guess, I can hardly believe it myself.
For seven years I have been drooling over only one guy and now I could not care less about him. I wonder how long will I stay true to not having a crush back on him again.

Surprisingly, I have been 'clean' for about six months now.
It's been six months that I didn't feel the urge to send him a random text message.
It's been six months since the last time I stayed up in front of my YM just to see whether he's online or not.
It's been six months since I was turning my brain upside down just to find a topic of conversation that is equally interesting to both of us.

And now, I have been treating him as my normal guy friends.
I remember back in June 2009, when I was away for 1,5 months, we were texting each other.
He said something like, "so do you have to be away for two months?"
I said, "I don't know. The company's letter stated that. Why?"
He said, "Well. It's such a long time. Two months. you're away for two months."

When I told my friends about our texts, one of my friends said, "so. did you ask him why he seemed very sad that you're away for two months? Did you ask him whether he's gonna miss you?"
When I answered no to both questions, my friends boo-ed me for an everlasting minute.
and this friend said, "why didn't you do it? why didn't you try to flirt with him? if it were our guy friends, you would flirt with him to death! you would've said 'why you're so curious? are you gonna miss me???' Or something like that. why did you turn to be such a chicken when it comes to flirting with him?"
I could only answer it with deep silent.

Now, that doesn't happen anymore.
I don't have any second thought.
We were chatting earlier today and I teased him just as I teased my guy friends.
I even did the one thing that I was never brave enough to do before: I was flirting with him!
He was telling me that he would like to go home. I was being so frank, I said to him, "what do you wanna do going back home anyway. your family visits you all the time! Oh, do you actually miss me???"
and I could sense his shyness when he said, "well. you're such a tease..."
So there. I treated him as my guy friends.
and because of our unmatched online schedule, we don't chat anymore. Well we do, but only twice in six months or something like that. And my mind has been very occupied with so many things, I can't even afford to wander about him.

So to you my friends who still can't accept that I've moved on, please do.
And to all my other friends, please support me. Without all your support, I know there's always a possibility for me to fall right back into my addiction of having a crush on him.
I don't want to go back there.
Seven years of nothing is more than enough for one single guy.

Now, where are all the other smart and good looking guys hang out???