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Friday, April 30, 2010

Can't Fight This Feeling

I don't know what got me.
But when I was in the shower this afternoon (yes. I had a shower in the afternoon. great life of my personal long weekend, rite?), I suddenly thought about this song.
(Remember the scene was when Finn was also in the shower? in the afternoon? *wink*)
Thankfully this song was very easy to find on the internet, so I downloaded it right away and I have been enjoying it ever since.

It turned out that the lyrics were great. so I took the liberty on sharing the lyrics on my blog.
I hope you enjoy it as much I do.

Glee Cast - Can't Fight This Feeling

I can't fight this feeling any longer
and yet I'm still afraid to let it flow
what started off as friendship has grown stronger
I only wish i had the strength to let it show

And even as I wander, I'm keeping you in sight
Your a candle in the window, on a cold dark winters night
and I'm getting closer then I ever thought I might

And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I've started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
and throw away the oars
Baby I can't fight this feeling anymore

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you
I've been running round in circles in my mind
And it always seems I'll following you girl
Coz you take me to the places that alone I cannot find

And even as I wander, I'm keeping you in sight
Your a candle in the window, on a cold dark winters night
and I'm getting closer then I ever thought I might

And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I've started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
and throw away the oars forever

Coz I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I've started fighting for
Even if I had to crawl upon your floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby I can't fight this feeling anymore

Friday, April 23, 2010

Teman Baik (Bagian 7)


Sudah lama aku bolos nulis tentang Teman Baik ini.
Sebenernya udah lama juga pengen nulis tentang beberapa orang, tapi aku ngerasa belum ada momen yang pas. Kalau momennya udah pas, malah aku-nya yang gak punya waktu buat nulis. Jadi terbengkalai begini deh.

Untuk tulisan Teman Baik edisi ketujuh ini aku akan sedikit bercerita tentang Aryanie Amellina.

Aku pertama kali kenal Anie, begitu dia biasa dipanggil, pas baru masuk ITB, kita sekelas sepanjang tahun pertama.Pandangan pertama aku tentang Anie gak terbentuk saat aku pertama kali kenalan sama Anie, tapi terbentuk di kelas pengenalan infrastruktur. Kelas yang menurut aku agak kurang penting dan membosankan. Waktu itu seorang dosen sedang mengajar di depan kelas. Cara mengajarnya sangat membosankan dan membuat semua mahasiswa mengantuk. Entah karena dosennya terlalu cepat mengajar atau bagaimana, si dosen yang seharusnya selesai mengajar jam 3 siang, sudah selesai mengajar jam 2 siang.
Kemudian si dosen bertanya, "masih ada waktu?"
Semua mahasiswa yang ada di kelas diam. Kami semua tidak berani berbohong dengan mengatakan "tidak" tapi juga sudah sangat ingin pulang. Setelah beberapa detik kelas itu hening, tiba-tiba seorang cewek menjawab dengan lantang.
"Masih, Pak. Baru jam 2."

Serentak, seluruh mahasiswa lain yang berada di ruangan itu sibuk mencari sumber suara. Ternyata si sumber suara tersebut adalah Aryanie Amellina.
Si dosen pun kembali melanjutkan kuliah selama satu jam berikutnya dengan slide kuliah yang sama dan dengan suasana membosankan yang sama.
Semenjak saat itu, aku langsung bertanya-tanya. Siapa sih Anie ini?Ketika aku tau kalau dia anak lulusan SMA 8 Jakarta, aku serta-merta langsung mengangguk-anggukkan kepala, "Ooo... pantes! Rajin!"

Kemudian, entah bagaimana caranya aku dan Anie dan beberapa teman lainnya jadi dekat satu sama lain. Dari kedekatan aku dengan Anie itu ada tujuh fakta (karena edisi ketujuh!) tentang Anie yang menurut aku menggemparkan. Ini dia:

1. Anie itu adalah teman yang paling rasional yang pernah aku punya.
Kadang-kadang wanita kan suka mikir pakai hati, bukan pakai otak. Anie itu bukan tipe cewek yang seperti itu. Kalau aku lagi butuh pandangan-pandangan yang menggunakan logika, aku pasti bakalan datang ke Anie. Dia bisa mikirin suatu hal dari sisi yang sama sekali gak pernah aku pikirkan sebelumnya dan pemikirannya itu sangat sering masuk akal.

2. Uniknya, Anie bisa rasional hanya jika menyangkut permasalahan hidup orang lain.
Nah, sisi kewanitaan Anie (bagian yang mikir pakai hati) muncul kalau dia menghadapi permasalahan hidupnya sendiri, terutama masalah cowok. Aku masih ingat deh waktu dia heboh bener sama cowoknya yang sekarang. Aku mencoba memberikan saran-saran yang rasional seperti "lupain aja" atau "masih ada cowok yang lain" atau bahkan "he's not freaking worth it", tapi dia tetep gak dengerin. Sebagai teman yang (berusaha menjadi) baik, aku sih udah berusaha ngasih saran aja, didenger atau dilakuin atau enggak sih itu urusan belakangan.

3. Anie kalo makan LAMA BANGET!
Semua proses makan Anie tuh lama. Mulai dari milih makanan, milih minuman, mempertimbangkan keadaan keuangan, memisah-misahkan makanan, memotongnya jadi kecil-kecil, mengunyah, menelan, semuanya deh.
Untungnya diantara teman-teman cewek kami, ada cewek-cewek yang makannya lebih lama daripada Anie. Jadi Anie cenderung bisa dimaafkan. LOL

4. Anie gak cerita langsung ke aku waktu dia jadian sama pacarnya saat ini.
Menurut aku ini fakta yang menggemparkan loh, kan ceritanya kita teman baik. hahaha.
Aku sih sekarang udah gak kesel kayak waktu baru tau dari twitter soal kejadian jadiannya dia ini. Sekarang aku udah mengerti. Tapi maaf nie, I'm gonna rub this to your face forever, similar to that "take my heart but please don't break it" thingie. LOL

5. Aku senang melihat Anie tertawa.
Berkah dari pemikiran-pemikiran Anie yang sangat rasional, Anie kadang bisa jadi orang yang sangat serius dan gak santai. Karena itulah, aku senang banget kalau Anie udah tertawa lepas. Ada sesuatu aja dari tawa terbahak-bahak-nya Anie yang sangat lepas dan bebas. Kayak puas banget gitu. Makanya aku berusaha ngelawak selalu deh di depan Anie!

6. Anie benar-benar teman yang pengertian.
Jadi di kepengurusan HMTL lalu, Anie jadi ketua sebuah acara besar.
Entah Anie tau aku gak suka kerjaan jadi Event Organizer, atau entah Anie tau aku gak mau lagi direptkan dengan tetek-bengek himpunan, atau entah Anie gak mau maksa aku, Aku gak pernah dipaksa sama Anie buat ngebantuin dia di acara super gede-nya HMTL tersebut.
Aku berterima kasih banget loh, Nie. Agak gak enak juga sih sama Anie, aku kayak gak ngebantuin apa-apa (aku ngebantuin danus lah dikit ya. LOL), tapi Anie tuh sama sekali gak maksa aku. Kalo pertemanan kita ada itung-itungannya nih, gara-gara acara gede ini pasti nilai pertemanan aku udah minus!

7. Anie tuh temen yang "so sweet" banget.
Tau kan kalau ada kejadian yang romantis atau mengharukan atau semacamnya kita suka refleks menggumamkan "aaawww... so sweet..."?
Nah, Anie ini bisa bikin aku banyak banget menggumamkan "aww... so sweet..." ini. Dia suka ngucapin selamat dengan berbagai macam kalimat yang menggetarkan hati. Yang paling deket sih hal paling berlebihan yang dia lakukan buat aku:

Terima kasih Anie. That was one of the nicest things a friend ever did to me!
The cake was surprisingly good. hehehe

Jadi, itulah salah satu Teman Baik aku.
Aryanie Amellina.

Setelah berteman selama empat tahun penuh, aku pasti akan merindukan kamu setelah kita lulus nanti, Nie.
Friends Forever?

Friday, April 09, 2010

It's Complicated

I know I'm behind. Very behind, indeed, because I just had the chance to watch this movie this morning.
Yes. I just watched It's Complicated this morning.

I really wanted to watched the movie the minute I saw the trailer on TV, somewhere.
I got excited about when it will be released in Indonesia and got disappointed that I don't think it did or will be released.
Suddenly, my friends were like, "I watched it. It's good."
and I was really surprised.
So, Hollywood people, you wonder why pirates dvds are big in my country? maybe you should sell your movies on time in my country, so we can all have the liberty of watching it fresh from where ever it was made, on time before the pirates are done with their piracy making.

Anyway, I finally got a chance to watch the movie this morning and what else can I tell you other than "It's Complicated"?

The story was about a lady, Jane Adler (Meryl Streep).
She was a divorced lady with 3 grown-up children (yeah. it doesn't make any sense. grown-up children).
Accidentally, she got into an affair with her ex-husband Jake Adler (Alec Baldwin). It was an affair because her ex-husband was actually married, but his marriage had lots of issues.
So, while keeping this relationship under cover, Jane met another divorced guy named Adam (Steve Martin). Adam clearly had a thing for Jane and he tried to make her return the feelings.
and the story goes on and on describing the all three's feelings with other people around them as some kind of 'sweetener'.

Honestly, the beginning scenes when Jane was left alone by her children made me think about myself.
I mean, I'm single and I sometimes felt left out.
But the thought and feelings did not stay long.
as the story goes, Jane reminds me a lot with my mom.
When Jane was left alone at her house, I was imagining when I have to leave this country to get my master and when my sister also has to leave home for college. That must be how my mom would feel, alone and sad.
Good thing my parents are not divorced and they still have each other's backs for everytime they get lonely and sad.
The feeling for my mom grew stronger when the story described a lot of things about Jane Adler. How she likes to cook, how she feeds her family, how she lives in a house with huge outdoor area, how she has her own garden and actually picks tomatoes from her own garden, and I could go on and on.

That Jane Adler describes my mom A LOT.
My mom is the BEST cook in the whole world. She cooks, she bakes, she knows her way around the kitchen. sure her food's presentation may not look as fashionable as the five star restaurants, but her cooking is as good as the five star's.
I have been forced to stay home for a week while she's away with my dad's business trip and I'm dying because of my boring breakfast: toast and tea/milk/juice. If my mom's around, she would do her magic around the kitchen and everyday's breakfast is gonna be a new experience every day.
And the way Jane Adler cooks in the movie, she always cooks A LOT. Her friends and family mentioned it on the movie, it was like she's constantly preparing for a feast or something. That exactly happens with my mom. My dad always complains that she cooks too much of everything we end up throwing away food or having it on the table for more than two days. As for me, I used to don't get it either, the way mom always cooks too much food, but watching the movie, I realised that it was her sense of motherhood talking. She doesn't want anyone to starve, she wants everybody to has their share. It was simply the sign of togetherness, sign of a family.
And oh, my mom would LOVE Jane Adler's house. Not a very big house, but with a great outdoor property, with pool and everything. Don't mention the garden to my mom, she would die. She always dreams a house with a huge garden where you can grow all kinds of fruit and veggies, with huge Koi pond on the side.
Last thing, my mom would die to have Jane Adler's job. Owning a bakery, it was one of her dreams! We (I mean, me and some of my aunties and cousins) have encourage her to open her own bakery but I guess my dad (and his ego of being the guy who earns the money) plus the risk of selling foods (my mom always says jumping into a food industry is very risky, either you know what you're doing or you don't, either you have it in you or you just don't) always got in her way. Maybe when dad's retired my mom will start her own bakery or restaurant or something like that. I'll just have to see.

Over all, the movie was good.
Nancy Meyers have done it again. I fell in love with The Parent Trap (I watched it over and over again, too bad LiLo can't stay as a kid forever), and What Women Want, Something's Gotta Give, and I HAVE TO watch The Holiday (yeah. it's a shame that I haven't watched it).
One thing though, the seducing and sex scenes between Meryl Streep and Alec Baldwin really bothered me. Sure Ravina said something about this movie being weird because old people are having sex everywhere, but I never thought that it would bother me. and it unfortunately did. I mean, comparing Jane Adler to my mom made me compare the sex she's having with the sex that my mom maybe having. and it is disgusting.
Plus Alec Baldwin is old and fat and has a lot of chest hair, making it even more unbearable.

If you haven't watched the movie, grab the dvd, set up a girls night out with your girlfriends to go over this movie over and over again. It won't be complicated as the story, but fun will be granted!

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

Positive Thinking

So, while sick, I have been thinking about some things...
(well, I wasn't exactly thinking that earns me a lot of energy like when you're thinking everytime you're doing exams or presentations or something like that. This kind of thinking was the kind that just came to your mind without you even realizing it)
Instead of blabbering about how much I'm missing while sick, I decided to blabber around about some of the positive things that's been happening to me while sick.
Here we go...

1. I get to play A LOT of GAMES!
when I say A LOT, I really-really-really mean A LOT.
if you know me, I don't play games. I just don't.
I'm not good at any games. I'm just not.
My sister was the one who mastered every kind of games she's been playing: PS, Wii, iTouch, Nintendo DS, Facebook (silly) Games, anything.
So, for me to spend hours and hours on my sister's iTouch, finishing off many-many games I haven't played ever before, it was amazingly fun!

2. I watch A LOT of THINGS!
again, when I say A LOT, I really-really-really mean A LOT.
I watch everything!
I watch many-many downloaded TV Series, movies that have been on my computer for a bit, the crappy infotainments, music videos, EVERYTHING.
I'm spending hours and hours and hours in front of my laptop, if not TV.
and sure, I've been a watcher before, but this time around, I watch A LOT of THINGS!
and I still think that I need more and more and more time to watch movies and tv series and crappy infotainments, and many more else.

3. I have decided what I don't want to become.
Yes. I haven't really decide what I wanna become, but I have decided what I DON'T want to become.
I don't wanna be a housewife.
I don't wanna be the wife who stays home, waiting around for my husband and kids to come home.
I really don't want to be a housewife.
If, only if, I get married to a guy who asked me to go to a remote place and I have to leave my career (which I'm really, genuinely going to do, just like what my mother did with my dad), I WOULD NOT just sit around and wait around for my husband and kids. I would fine SOMETHING to do (other than playing games and watching something), either it's a book club, cooking club, knitting club, anything to keep me busy. So I'm not just A housewife, I'm A BUSY housewife.

So there.
among many other positive things that I discovered during this sick period of my life.

One thing though,
I don't think I want to repeat any of this.
Not even all the spare time...

Monday, April 05, 2010

A Friend In Need Is A Friend Indeed

I just understand that line in this pas week.

I mean, I don't want to claim anybody to be my BEST friend, because secretly I know I can't always count on to any of my friends. In other words, none of my friends would jump out of a bridge for me and I wouldn't even think asking them to do it for me, in the first place.

That is why I call most of my friends my CLOSE friends.
I have CLOSEST friends, but not BEST friends.
CLOSE friends mean the people I'm happily interacting with.
CLOSEST friends mean the people that I'm happily interacting with MOST frequently.

So, this past week I was sick (well, my mother demands me to stay sick until next Sunday, so there...).
I was so sick that I had to be hospitalized. I was lying in bed, with IV and the hospital's patients robes/gown, my head was pounding, I had fever as high as 38 degrees Celcius, and I lost my appetite.
I was experiencing the worst of myself. I really thought that my head was gonna explode from the excruciating pain. I really wished that I was able to cut my head off of my body, wondering if that would make me feel better. I was literally crying and throwing tantrums when I was requested to stay another night because the lab result for my blood was not good enough (in fact, my blood told the doctor that I actually got worse).
I even hated myself when I got sick.

(No wonder I got to my mother's nerve and my father had to replace her on taking care of me! GOSH! oh and YES! My dad actually slept in the hospital and he took a very good care of me!)

Well, my point being is, I received tons of text messages. and facebook comments. and also twitter mentions. from many-many friends of mine.
and when I say tons, it was really many. and when I say many, it was really-really many.
and I should say THANK YOU for all the GET WELL SOON wishes.
but here's what I don't get:

1. many-many-many text messages, facebook comments, and twitter mentions from many-many-many of my friends demanded replies from me.
I mean, again, THANK YOU guys for all the GET WELL SOON, but then I thought I was dying in the hospital bed, I couldn't even lift my head up and you actually expected me to reply your wishes??? do you actually mean your wishes???

2. so I first found out that I was sick on Saturday (well, I didn't feel good on Friday night, but I thought it would go away by Saturday morning and it turned out it didn't, so...), by Monday most of my friends got the message that I was sick. Or so I thought.
On Friday, I still got messages asking whether I was sick and hospitalized.
I know, I know that I was too full of myself. who the hell I think I was, expecting all my friends to know everything about me?
But you know, I thought my friends would communicate and told each other about my being sick. It turned out that I wasn't the center of their attention and I felt a little bit left out.

3. it turned out that some of my CLOSEST friends (or some people that I thought I got really close, anyway) didn't know anything about me being hospitalized. Well, I'm not sure if he/she didn't know or just didn't care. but instead of sending me wishes to get well soon, he/she sent me text messages about campus election.
I KNOW campus election was the highlight of last week. I KNOW that I haven't put any interest of any of that. but texting me about campus election when I was hospitalized???
I'm not only talking about someone being my CLOSEST friend, let alone ethics. but get this: I didn't care about campus election when I'm healthy, do you honestly think that I would get out of my hospital bed and suddenly care about campus election???
well, THINK AGAIN!

Anyway, THANK YOU for all the GET WELL SOON wishes.
I can say that I'm now 90% recovered, thanks for all the prayers.
ULTIMATE THANK YOU for my DEAREST friends who drove all the way from Bandung to Jakarta just to see how I was doing. I owe you, guys! I CAN'T thank you enough.

Other than that, THANK YOU for being my friends, for all my friends!
I can't get enough of friends.