I just had a vision…. Hahaha! I’m kidding! I’m not Raven (from “That So Raven” for those of u who knows the Disney Channel TV Series)
No. I just understood one thing.
Well, lemme explain the situation like this…
I’m in Jakarta right now… typing this with my sister’s laptop (the used to be mine one…)
This weekend is the third weekend I come to Jakarta in a row.
My first weekend, I came here on purpose to go to Jakarta International Jazz Festival. And I did go there. And had loads of fun…
My second weekend, I came here on purpose to go to the MTV Staying Alive Music Summit. And I did go there. Even though I was kinda disappointed coz it was really crowded and the crowd was uncontrollable and I didn’t get a chance to see Maliq n d’essentials live, I still saw some great performance…
My third weekend, I came here on purpose to go to the Traxkustik. The jazz thing held by MTV Trax. And I didn’t go there. I was in the eX, Plaza Indonesia until 5.30 pm and the thing started at 6pm, but I had to go home… My sister is sick and we choose to go home…
The thing is… I really wanted to go to the Traxkustik thingy… I really wanted to watch Tompi live.
But then I sacrifice all that coz my sister didn’t look like she had any power to be kept awake…
And what I wanna share with y’all is actually how I felt…
Well, I thought, “Oh my God! I really wanted to watch Tompi!” but then I thought, “What’s really important about Tompi? My sister’s gonna have her exam on Tuesday and she’s gotta be healthy for that… I don’t really wanna sacrifice that… besides, there’s another chance that I’m gonna watch Tompi again in Bandung on the 23rd. So, nothing to lose, really…”
So we did go home.
On our way, my mom asked, “Is it really okay that we cancel this watching Tompi thing? Coz u actually came here for that…”
I could hardly say anything. It took me sometime to swallow my saliva before I could actually say anything. Plus the pretending-clearing-my-throat thing. I finally said, “It’s alright…Do I have any other option anyway?”
And my mom didn’t give any reply back…
So we got into our car. And I started thinking.
“Mmm… aren’t I supposed to be mad? Aren’t I supposed to be sad? Aren’t I supposed to keep my hard feeling???”
I actually did try to be mad. To be sad. To have hard feeling to my mom, or sister, or whoever.
But, amazingly, I couldn’t. In fact, I can’t.
I can’t be mad to anyone coz I didn’t get to watch Tompi live. I can’t be sad. I don’t have any hard feeling to anyone coz I didn’t actually watch Tompi.
And I thought, is this a process to be an actual adult?
I mean, I know that to be an adult means I’m not allowed to act childish anymore. And what happened to me this afternoon was one of those processes.
I kinda understand that I can’t get anything that I want exactly at a time that I want it. There’s a process for everything…
And being adult means understanding that u don’t always get what u want…
Well… have fun being an adult!
Nice quote: “Being grown up isn’t half as fun as growing up” (The Ataris – In This Diary)
this is the event that I was supposed to go to tonite...
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