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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

serious stuff...

Alright… after sometime, I wrote some ‘useless’ stuff in my blog. Now, I’m gonna write something more ‘useful’. Well, here’s the story… as I wrote up in my blog’s explanation, my blog is a place to replace my diary… so, here we go…
This morning, I got two txt message (short message service or sms)from my two best friends… those messages were exactly the same. it said: “describe me in ONE WORD, just one! Send it to me, then send this message to ur friends and see how many wonderful/strange things ppl think about u! reply please, it’s fun!”
I was excited just reading the message. That thing was cool! I love those kinda stuff…
So I replied those messages to my friend and send the same message to some of my friends. It was hard-though… describing ur friend in one word is hard! Describing ur self in one word is harder! Accepting what ppl think about u is the hardest…
When I started sending the message to my friend, I kinda picked and chose which friend I wanted to send the message out… Is he/she a good friend of mine? Is he/she gonna reply my message? Is he/she really care about my message and really think bout me when he/she receives it? Or is she/he gonna ignore the message?
When I sent out the message, I thought… oh well, as long as I know, they’re my friend… and I believe in them, so far I can kinda count on them… so, whatever happens should not b a problem for me, or for my friends, or for us…I kinda had faith in myself and my friends…
Anyway, I sent out some message to my friends… and… (drum roll-please…) here are their answers:
- Nita (one of my classmates. In fact, she’s my desk mate in class. She should know me by know-I think): strange. Hahaha! I just wanted to laugh at the word when I read it… Funny… real funny… ‘strange’ is so far a great description for myself. I admit that. And for a person that know me for only six months, ‘strange’ is a wonderful word!
- Lina (She’s one of my classmates. She’s a good person… I like talking to her): Hanif. Hanif means straight, she said. In her opinion, I can be in the straight line in the middle of fake world. So, if I’m allowed to explain it, in her opinion I kinda know where I am and where I’m going and I have a faith to believe. Pretty good, eh? Alhamdulillah…
- Ditta (one of my best friends. She was one of my friends that sent me the same message): she was kinda cheating in answering the question, so I’m just gonna write what she wrote for me, “I think u’re so ‘daddy’s little girl’. Ups, that’s three words, aren’t they? (ditta, watch out ur grammar! It’s supposed 2b “that are three words, aren’t they?” kay?) but that’s the first thing I thought. No hard feeling, okay?!” No! hell, no hard feeling-of course! I mean, I believe that they’re my friends and what they’re saying is nothing but things to make me success. But she was cheating! It was supposed to be one word! and one word only!
- Mira (my friend since the gr.2 of Junior High School, or gr. 8 if it's more usual for u): mandiri. Well, it's a wonderful word... Mandiri in english is (...I'm thinking...) 'stand on ur own feet'... I'm not sure what the exact word is... but those words are pretty good explanation, right? Probably Mira said that becoz I don't live w/ my family anymore since I was in gr. 10. but 'mandiri' or 'stand on my own feet' is a wonderful word... thx, mira!
- Andhika (he's one of my friend and he's a guy-he's not a boy anymore, y'know- He lives in front of my house and I felt like he kinda knows me...): shopaholic. WHOA!!! shopaholic????!!! what the hell does he think?! well, there's no hard feeling of some sorts... but I never thought that he doesn't really think of the question... or am I just a shopaholic and I don't realize it? I admit that lately (esp. after I came back from Canada) I realize that shopping's fun. I like it, but I don't think that I'm a shopaholic myself, hell No! And he said that he thinks I'm a shopaholic becoz I love to go out and he just saw a book called 'Shopaholic and Sister'. See? that's why I thought that he didn't really think about me... I mean, I love going out. I hate staying at home if I don't have any plan to do... But whenever I go out, it doesn't mean that I go shopping! I have friends, we talked... we go to movies, we have a bite to eat, or we go for some window shopping... oh well, I take every critics that come to me... I really appreciate that he was willing to share what he thinks of me...
- Alin (another one of my best friends): She was cheating too! these are what she wrote "Gharib=strange, boros=like to spend lots of money, open, terlalu musik=too much into music, dunia=life-think about life too much without worrying about life after death." wow! that were lots! Those words were deep, but yet those are so me!!! that's crazy! but I think, the most suitable word for me is the last word. I think too much about my life now and I don't care about my life after death later (yet).
- Wiput (one of my classmates. She's a pretty good girl...): hardworker. Oh my freakin' God!!! someone actually said that I'm a fuckin' hardworker... well, thank you very much for ur compliment, Wiput... but, to b honest with u, I think u don't know me that well yet... It's not that I'm pessimist or something, it's just... I fell that it's not true. I'm not a hardworker yet... I'm really lazy. and worse, my laziness drives me crazy!!! well, hopefully bcoz of that 'hardworker' word Wiput gave me, I become a real hardworker...
- Asti (or Bule I usually call her. She's another one of my best friends. I've been friends w/ her and her twin sister since gr.7): tough! (with the exclamation point too!) hmm... a good choice of word-I think... am I tough? I just never knew or realize that before... but, uh-oh, I just don't know what to say...
- Cabuy (he is one of my classmates... he's a guy... we talk a lot... I told him about my crush, so that means we're kinda close...): dewasa=an adult. I was kinda shock when he told me that... I mean, I wonder if he really knows me or something... coz I believe most of my friends that really know me won't agree with him... I think I'm still childish myself, most of the time...
well... those are some of them... hopefully some other friends reply me... and I'm gonna send the message to my other friends again...
hope those words can evaluate me good enough...

for other people who haven't reply my txt msg. REPLY PLEASE!!! diah, Aulin, Ayu, Anna, Anggi, RifQ!!!! I'm waiting for ur reply!!!

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Starsailor

here's another good song...

Starsailor - In The Crossfire

I don’t see myself when I look in the mirror
I see who I should be
I don’t see myself when I look in your eyes
Thank god for that
I don’t see myself when I look across the river
I see where I should be
I don’t see myself when I look from the sky
Thank god for that
I hear them scream on the radio
It’s getting louder in the crossfire
Try to find some hope
From the ashes of their broken home
I don’t see myself when they fail to deliver
I see what I should be
I don’t see myself when I look at the flag
Thank god for that
I hear them scream on the radio
It’s getting louder in the crossfire
Try to find some hope
***
I dare you, come
We’ll find the sun
We’ll find the fire
We’ll try to find
The love we give
I want desire
***
I hear them scream on the radio
It’s getting louder in the crossfire
Try to find some hope
I hear them scream on the radio
It’s getting louder in the crossfire
Try to find some hope
From the ashes of their broken home
I don’t see myself when I look in the mirror

Starsailor emang jagoan klo bikin lagu...
does anyone wanna buy me their cd?????
Wink





Monday, December 19, 2005

wanted....!!!

alright....
here's the list of cds that I wanted.... :
- Daniel Powter's new album: Daniel Powter
- Alicia Keys unplugged
- Blink 182 greatest hits
- Limp Bizkit greatest hits
- Craig David: The Story Goes...
- Savage Garden: Truly MAdly Completely, greatest Hits
- Tompi: T
- Destiny's CHild: #1's Destiny's Child
- Eminem: Curtain Call (it would b better if u buy me the repackage one... Thumbs Up)

for those of u who has extra money and wants to buy me one of those(or all of them) for me... tell me... I'd receive it gladly...
or, does anyone has the same cd as what I wanted? is it good? tell me about it, ok?

Saturday, December 17, 2005

one of my wonderful life's experiences...

alright....
hmmm....
bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

I'm dying... I'm melting... I'm just sssssooooooooo freakin' happy!!!!!
WooHoo Smile Roll Bounce

okay, my 50000 rupiah is gone but it was sooooooo freakin' worthed!!!!

it was the time when I was listening to the radio that a man named Tompi was gonna perform in Bandung... For those of u who don't know Tompi, Tompi is a great singer with a unique voice. His voice is different than other male singer... He's also a vocalist of a group band called 'Bali Lounge'.
I was surprised when I heard that he's gonna perform on a cafe... I made some phone calls... asked many ppl about the performance... made a reservation... asked my cousin to go along with me... asked many of my friend to go along with me and most of them refused... and bought the ticket... got the ticket... got confused on what I have to wear to the performance... Wait in the cafe from 7-9.30ish pm... until finally.... WATCH TOMPI LIVE!!!!!
it was such a great experience!!!

So, today I promised my cousin to meet in her office after her working hours. Her husband picked her up and we were going with him. On the ticket it says that the performance was gonna start on 7 pm. before 7 pm, we were already there...
so, we saw Tompi was checking the sound.... his voice is good... no, not good... it was great!!!
but then he left. we were confused. and then we found out that he was gonna come back to that cafe just a lil' before he perform... We had something to eat... until 8 pm, no one was on the stage... I was kinda pessimist... I was thinking of sueing the ppl that made this event if Tompi is not gonna come... hahaha
8 pm, the opening act started to sing... oh ya, before the opening act, there was a lil incident... our table was supposed to b filled w/ 6 ppl, which were my cousin and her husband, my friend, me and 2 other ppl. when another 2 ppl came, they saw their place, and they hate it. they didn't wanna sit w/ us. I don't know why... mayb becoz they're a couple and they want their privacy and stuff... I don't know... so, finally we switched place with some ppl... and WE GOT THE VERY FRONT SEATS!!! OUR SEATS WERE RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE STAGE!!! I could see anything that happened on the stage... We were just soooooooooo lucky!!!
so the opening act was singing and stuff... we talked about him... his voice wasn't that bad... but, the truth was we were all waiting for Tompi... and nobody was really paying attention to him... poor guy... his voice was kinda good, though...
after the opening act, there were some quizes... I won some stuff... that was it... we were still waiting for Tompi...
and finally, lil after 9.30 pm, he came!!! HE CAME AND SING!!! and that was the time when I knew the difference... I could feel that there was a different feeling... it was AWESOME!!! even awesome seems not enough...

Tompi WAS THE MAN!!! he was really cool... really soul... really jazzy... it was a fun concert... it was great... it was... unbelievable...
after the concert, my friend and I took a couple pics with him... and I got his autograph for my cousin...
HE WAS SOOOOOOOO COOL!!!
well, not the way he dress though... he wasn't stylish.... I don't like his style... He didn't look like he has hair on his chest... hahaha
but anyway. who the hell fucking care about his appearance when he can actually melt u down with his wonderful voice???
hell!!! IT WAS FUCKING GREAT!!!
ohhh... tonite was one of the best nights in my life!!!

nih... fotoku bersama Tompi...............
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Thursday, December 15, 2005

Daniel Powter

jadi critanya tuh aku suka ngumpulin lirik lagu... tapi, ternyata di website tpt aku nyimpen lirik2 lagu itu ada limitnya... jadi, yawda deh aku pake blogku tercinta ini deh bwt nyimpen lirik2 lagu yg aku suka...
yang suka juga ama lagu2 yg aku pajang bilang2 yak!!!
soalnya kdg2 selera musikku suka aneh2 gitu... kan asik ada temen...
hehehe
enjoy! happy singing!

Daniel Powter - Bad Day

Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

ada yang suka Daniel Powter gaaaaakkkk??? aku cinta banget ama dya....
lagunya enaaaaaaakkkkkk banget.... kalo ada yg dah punya albumnya, bilang2 ya... crita2... aku pengen bli, tapi bimbang nih... oke? oke?
happy singing again!

Daniel Powter - Jimmy Gets High

Jimmy you know, everybody hates you when you're living off rock 'n roll
So you get high tonight
And Jimmy you lied, I wonder if you ever get yourself back here alive
So you get high tonight
'Cause you don't need nobody to make it on your own
You dont need nobody you'd rather be alone
So Jimmy gets high tonight
And Jimmy gets high tonight
I must confess, I'm a real live wire
Jimmy you and me we get along a while
Jimmy gets high tonight
Jimmy you lied, I'm hoping that soon maybe life it don't pass you by
So Jimmy gets high tonight
And Jimmy you know, everybody hates you when you're living off your rock 'n roll
So you get high tonight
'Cause you don't need nobody to make it on your own
You don't need nobody you'd rather be alone
So Jimmy gets high tonight
And Jimmy gets high tonight
I must confess, I'm a real life wired
Jimmy you and me we get along a while
Jimmy gets high tonight
I've been so confused
And I just hope it all gets banned to you
So Jimmy gets high tonight
I must confess, I'm a real life wired
Jimmy you and me we get along a while
So Jimmy gets high tonight
And I hope it'll be allright
Jimmy gets high tonight
And I hope it'll be allright
Jimmy you know, everybody hates you when youre living off your rock 'n roll
So you get high

Pussycat Dolls

Pussycat Dolls - Don't cha

I know you like me (I know you like me)
I know you do (I know you do) T
hats why whenever I come around she's all over you
And I know you want it (I know you want it)
It's easy to see (it's easy to see)
And in the back of my mind I know you should on with me

[Chorus] Don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me
Don't you wish your girlfriend was a freak like me
Don't cha, dont cha
Don't you wish your girlfriend was raw like me
Don't you wish your girlfriend was fun like me
Don't you, dont cha

Fight the feeling (fight the feeling)
Leave it alone (leave it alone)
Cause if it ain't love
It just ain't enough to leave a happy home
Let's keep it friendly (let's keep it friendly)
You have to play fair (you have to play fair)
See, I dont care But I know she aint gon wanna share
Hmmmm....

[Chorus] Don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me
Don't you wish your girlfriend was a freak like me
Don't cha, don't cha, baby Don't cha, alright, sing
Don't you wish your girlfriend was raw like me
Don't you wish your girlfriend was fun like me (big thrills)
Don't cha

See, I know she loves you (I know she loves you)
I understand (I understand)
I'd probably be just as crazy about you
If you were my own man
Maybe next lifetime (maybe next lifetime)
Possibly (possibly)
Until then, Oh friend you're secret is safe with me

[Chorus] Dont you wish your girlfriend was hot like me
(oh) Dont you wish your girlfriend was a freak like me (like me)
Dont cha, dont cha, baby Dont cha, alright, sing
Dont you wish your girlfriend was raw like me (raw)
Dont you wish your girlfriend was fun like me (big thrills)
Dont cha, dont cha

nah... ini lagunya pussycat dolls yg asli....
lagunya yg stick wit u mah gak asli ah... gak mencerminkan pussycat dolls...

Pussycat Dolls - Stickwitu

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between I want you to know that,
you're the only one for me (one for me)
(What I'm sayin')

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

And now, ain't nothing else I can need
And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)
So don't cha worry about People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down I know you, and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't cha worry about People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down I know you, and you know me
And that's, that's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u (come on)
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

Nate James

Nate james - The Message

There is something wrong with sounds today
they never really captured how i feel
and whatever happened to the sounds today
i think they are lacking something real

like them old school jams
that kinda make you wanna dance
lose yourself in music feels so free
each time i take your stand and turn things round
i want you to express yourself through music
and go party and just sing yer
lets get it together
cos music and and that freedom or thinkin is pushing us further

got to get up and dance
got to get and move
got to send out my message to the people
got to get up and dance
got to get in the groove are you hearing my message to the people

so whats going on in life today
people looking down and thinking whats up
but we can think around and find a way
just keep on moving forward and dont give up
lets go back in time to the music on my mind
with stevie playing piano just for you

so what happened to the sounds today
i know that deep down you
love your music and go party and just sing it
lets get it together
and music and that freedom thinkin is pushing us further

got to get up and dance
got to get and move
got to send out my message to the people
got to get up and dance
got to get in the groove
are you hearing my message to the people
till end

I just like this song nowadays...
I don't know wheter the lyrics are correct or not...
but oh well, gotta get in the groove baby...!

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

for ur spare time....

hi guys...
whut's up???
do u have a spare time...?
u wanna know about ur crush...???
why don't u try this link....
http://www.crushcalculator.com/content/love/349858587

have fun, guys!
good luck!

Monday, December 12, 2005

I just got an email...

a funny one...

I no longer use Saran Wrap in the microwave because it causes cancer.
I no longer check the coin return on pay phones because I could be pricked with a needle infected with AIDS.
I no longer use cancer-causing deodorants even though I smell like a water buffalo on a hot day.
I no longer go to shopping malls because someone might drug me with a perfume sample and rob me.
I no longer receive packages from nor send packages by UPS or FedEx since they are actually Al Qaeda in disguise.
I no longer answer the phone because someone will ask me to dial a number for which I will get a phone bill with calls to Jamaica, Uganda, Singapore, and Uzbekistan.
I no longer eat KFC because their "chickens" are actually poisonous mutant freaks with no eyes or feathers.
I no longer have any sneakers -- but that will change once I receive my free replacement pair from Nike.
I no longer have to buy expensive cookies from Neiman Marcus because I now have their recipe.
I no longer worry about my soul because at last count I have 363,214 Angels looking out for me.

Thx Beatrix for sending me that e-mail... that is really funny...

Saturday, December 03, 2005

welcome to my life...

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
(Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life)

By the time I wrote this, I've cried for 3 times today.
crazy? unbelievable? I'm like a baby? what-fuckin'-ever u say! the truth is, I've cried out loud for three times today!
okay, here's the thing... I'm not sure what has happen to me.
People who know me understand that I usually go to Jakarta for the weekend coz my family actually lives there. On Thursday my mom called. She asked whether I'm coming to Jakarta this weekend or not. I couldn't make a decision. On friday she called again and I said I'm coming. I wasn't sure for coming to Jakarta coz I have lots to do. There's an extra lesson class that I was supposed to attend, I have lots of hw to do, and my final exams r coming up next thursday... But I thought about it again. I kinda still have time to study and do all my work, but if I'm not coming to Jakarta this weekend, I'm not sure when I can come again. next week is my final exams week. I'm gonna have a short break and when I go back to school again next semester, I'm gonna b real busy studying(hopefully) even on weekends...
So, I decided to go to Jakarta today. I packed my stuff before I went to school this morning and I was ready to go. When I was in school, I remember that I'm gonna have physics exam on monday. the exam's gonna be on 3 units. It's crazy!!! and I forgot to bring my physics book with me. I asked my stupid driver to bring my physics book that was on my book shelf.
After school, one of my friend asked me to have lunch together coz it's her b-day today... I accept her invitation gladly... who the hell reject free lunch???
When I got my my car after school, my driver showed me a book. and it wasn't my physics book. I don't know what the hell made him think that it was the right book. there's a title in front of my physics book, says "Aliendheasja Fawilia SMA Negeri 3 Bandung Buku Catatan Fisika" and he still got the fuckin wrong book. Argh! I felt that I was likely to kill him gladly...
so I was mad. I asked him to go back home and got the right book for me.
After he left. I called my dad. My sista picked up the phone. I asked her what time is mother gonna need all the stuff that I was supposed to bring from Bandung... She said at 7 pm. I said, I'm sure that I'm gonna b there on time. I hung up the phone and joined my friend.
five minutes later I got an sms from my dad. he said that I'd better go as soon as I can coz there's a possibility that I won't b there on time. I was mad. I mean I told my sis that I'm gonna do as best as I can, but my stupid driver got me a wrong book so he needs to go back home again. I also said that it's better for me not going to Jakarta if my mom really need the stuff as soon as possible.
not long after that, I got another sms. my dad said that if I'm gonna have an exam on monday, it'll b better for me not going to Jakarta then.
that was when I was dropped. I'm not sure what happens to ppl but why don't they understand me? just a lil' bit!
I was willing to go to Jakarta coz I'm not sure when I'm going to Jakarta again.... I wanted to meet my family. I miss them! ohhh fuck! and they just don't fuckin' get it!!!
right at that moment, I called my driver that I'm not going to Jakarta and he can go there by himself.
I actually had fun at the lunch with my friend. but guess what? there's something ironic happened... I was finished lunch at 1pm and I actually still had time to go to Jakarta if everyone was lil more patient.
I was mad. I was sad. I felt that I am unwanted.
When I was in angkot, my mom called, twice, I rejected it. When I go home, I went straight my room, cried, and slept.
I was dissapointed.
When I was sleeping, my dad called. with my reflex, I answered it. innocently he asked where I am and whether I'm on my way to Jakarta or not. I was really mad until I thought of scream on him. I said I was sleeping. and he hung up. I turned off my cell right away.
I woke up at 5 pm, took a shower. my dad called again. innocently (again) he asked me what time my extra lesson class's over... I said I'm not going. he asked me whether I had a plan on going or not. I said I didn't have any plan for tonite. and he hung up.
FUCK!!!!
I guess what made me angry is my life doesn't interest them anymore... and the distance between Bandung and Jakarta is real close so they feel that they don't need to know worry anything about me. especially my feeling....
FUCK!!!!
my dad didn't even ask me what I feel right now!!!
I feel like calling my mom and scream on her, cry on her, so she listen, so they listen, so they actually remember that they actually have another kid in another part of the world!!!
so they understand how tired I am with my life! so they know I don't get home until 9pm studying. for them. to make them proud... to make them happy... to do what they asked me to...
FUCK!!!!
okay, it's my fourth time crying today...
I don't know what else to write....