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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

tentang opini...

Aku takjub sama apa yang bisa mempengaruhi opini seseorang. Menurut aku ada banyak hal yang bisa bikin kita berubah pikiran, salah satunya adalah tempat kita tinggal dan suasana di tempat tersebut.
Contoh kasus yang pernah terjadi ama aku adalah masalah sekolah. Sekolah itu deket banget ama kehidupanku, jadi wajar dong...
Aku inget, taun lalu pas aku di Kanada, salah satu temenku ada yang ngepost gambar yang ada tulisannya "school sucks!" di blog kelas. Taun lalu aku mikir kalo itu salah banget. Temen2 aku di kanada malah mengiyakan gambar itu. Waktu itu aku mikir kalo mreka tuh gak bersyukur banget ama apa yang mreka dapet. gila! highschool in canada was fun! loads of fun! no hard himeworks, no long assn't (except that research paper and the extensibe reading in ELA B30 class), lots of quizes but no hard ones, no hard exams that can make u frustrate with ur very low marks (well, I did get low marks in ELA B30 exams thru out the semester, but that was nothing. I was an exchange student and english isn't my mother tounge, so that wasn't a single prob).
When I was there, I first thought that I could stay in school for the whole year. crazy thought-I know. And if uasked me what was my best experience when I was in ca, I'd answer school out loud. But guess what? now that I'm here, in my beloved country,Indonesia(hahaha!) I agree that school sucks so bad.
Tadi pagi pas aku lagi pake baju sambil ngantuk-ngantuk, aku sempet kepikiran saat-saat aku mau berangkat ke sekolah dengan semangat. kapan ya??? kalo boleh jujur, gak pernah deh kayaknya. Aku inget waktu pertama TK aja aku gak bisa tidur, bukan karena seneng, tapi tegang ama apa yang bakal terjadi besoknya. Masuk SD juga sama, soalnya ada gosip kalau guru kelasnya ngajar. Pas SMP aku tegang soalnya ada mos(kayak ospek gitu bg yg g tau) dan takut disuruh yang aneh2 di skolah ma kakak kelas. masuk SMA juga sama, lebih serem malah, soalnya mosnya lebih gila. Kakak kelasnya jauh lebih galak drpd jaman smp.
Setiap hari senen rasanya berat banget buat sekolah gara2 keasikan weekend. Setiap masuk sekolah habis libur panjang lebih males lagi rasanya. udah enak-enak libur, malah dibebanin lagi ama smua kerjaan skolah. Waktu aku di Kanada, aku lebih milih aku lebih milih skolah tiap hari, gak ada libur, jadi ada kerjaan tiap hari.
knapa ya bisa kyk gt? apa skolahku disini terlalu membebani murid2nya? ato malah skolahku sebenernya biasa aja dan aku-nya yang ngrasa terlalu terbebani? apa skolahku di Kanada yang emang terlalu sante?gak ngerti deh...
but anyway, can u see it? crita ttg skolahku itu adlh suatu contoh nyata klo opini kita senantiasa berubah, gampang banget malah. Salah satu penyebabnya adalah tempat kita tinggal dan suasana yang ngedukungnya....

Friday, November 25, 2005

Rasis dan Narsis

aku lagi bingung.... skarang2 ini aku sring banget ngedenger orang bilang, "Ihhh.... rasis banget sih..." ato, "woi! narsis banget sih lu!"
kalo aku, aku sebenernya blum ngerti banget apa artinya narsis... kalo rasis sih aku ngeri-nya arti sebenernya... rasis: sangat bangga dengan ras diri sendiri sehingga menganggap remeh atao jelek ras orang lain...
tapi kayaknya, seperti kata-kata yang lain di Indonesia, kata2 rasis dan narsis di plesetkan deh artinya... masalahnya gini... kalo ada orang yang punya hp yang berkamera trus kalau isi fotonya adalah foto pemiliknya semua, orang yg lg ngeliatin foto pasti bilang, "iiihhh... dasar narsis!!!"
kalo kata aku sih, yg kyk gitu itu bukannya narsis, tapi wajar... kalau yg punya hp berkamera kita kasi nama A, trus yg lg ngeliat hp kita kasih nama B, wajarlah kalo foto A lebih banyak di hpnya. itu kan hpnya A... kalo di hpnya A lebih byk fotonya B, itu baru gak wajar... Kalo yg punya hpnya A, terserah A dong mo naro foto sapa aja... apalagi kalo mo naro fotonya sendiri yg paling banyak... yang kayak gitu, menurut aku, bukan narsis!!!
trus skarang masalah rasis... contohnya aja yang kejadian yg baru aja terjadi di skolah hari jum'at kmaren... Hari Jum'at itu didedikasiin bwt tes olahraga. Kebetulan hari jum'at itu juga bertepatan dengan hari guru nasional... aku ngasih inisiatif ama temen2 seklasku yg laen bwt nyanyiin 'selamat Hari Guru' bwt guru2 kami yg ngajar. aku akuin, kita emang heboh banget. kita rame2, banyakan, nanyi2, brisik aja pokoknya... yang bikin aku mikir, knapa bisa muncul di pikiran orang2 lain yang brasal dari klas lain bahwa aku dan temen2 seklasku itu rasis? kenapa? padahal kan kita nggak ngejelek-jelekin kelas lain... kita juga gak nganggep bahwa diri kita superior... walopun kita brisik, kita heboh, tapi mnurut aku kita gak rasis ah! kita cuma nunjukin klo kita itu kelas yang kompak dan isinya orang2 aneh yang bisa diajak gila...
so? knapa sih kedua kata Rasis dan narsis itu sring banget di gembar-gemborkan...???
kalo mnurut aku sih, sebaiknya kita tuh gak usah sok2an pake satu kata yg sebenernya blum kta ngerti banget...
nah,hasilnya tuh bisa jd kyk contoh kasus rasis dan narsis ini... digunakan tdk sesuai dengan arti sebenernya... jadi bikin bingung... iya gak sih???

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Thursday, November 17, 2005

there are something more scary in this life...

Scary movie is really popular these days...
Indonesian: Mirror, missing, Jaelangkung&Tusuk Jaelangkung (remember that?)
Other country: Shutter(the scariest movie I've ever seen), The Ring, Ju-On, etc...
Hollywood: I don't think there is any real scary movie from hollywood. There are just crappy ones, like that recycle of the ring, etc...
I kinda like watching those kinda movie, eventhough there might be some scene in the movie that shock or surprise me... those scenes even stayed in my mind for quite sometime and it actually scared me...
But, guess what? there are things that more scary than just a scary movie, or crappy soap opera, or those crappy-scary stories about stupid ghost and stuff...
Life is scarier (is there any such word as 'scarier'? oh well, what-freaking-ever, it's either scarier or more scary) than those thing. Real life...
Just few days ago, there are a lot of things happen to me...
well, I'm reading this book called "The Minds of Billy Miligan" or "24 Wajah Billy"(in Bahasa Indonesia). The book is telling a true story of a man called Billy who had 24 characters that actually lived in his body. He actually lost track of time coz his other characters stole the time of his life. If u like psychological book, this one is a good one. It's like "Sybil"-a girl that has 16 characters lived in her body. Reading this book is scary. Imagine if u're the one who has multiple characters that live in ur body. U lost track of time. U don't know where things come from and how u get them. it's scary! The scary thing is someone with multiple characters is actually live, or they did live... it's a true story! it's real... and that's what I called life. when scary thing(s) happen(s), that is real life. So I'm finishing this book off today... and I never regret that I spent quite a bit of money for this book...
then couple days ago-I believe-I watched a movie on tv called "Sleepers". I'm not sure why it's called sleepers coz the story is absolutely not about people sleeping or people who like to sleep. It's about a group of boys that accidentally killed a guy and they had to go to the 'special home for boys' kinda thing. So they were in the court and they were sentenced to stay in that 'home' for some number of months... In that 'home' they were being treated like a-I'm not sure how I can describe it-doll-probably that's the best I can do. The guards in that 'home' treated them like a doll. The guards actually used them. too bad that they didn't receive a whole lot of love like a doll usualy receive... Instead, they were raped-sexually abuse, got hit, kick, and all those things. They were asked to eat from the floor, dirty floor. They were treated even worse than animals... And that movie was created based on a true story... real life, eh? That was a scary true story... honestly, that movie was ever scarier(or more scary) than any other scary movie that I've ever watched (well, I think except 'Shutter'. that was a great scary movie!!! It's REAL scary!)
Yesterday, I opened my e-mail inbox and I received an e-mail from a friend. The content of the e-mail was real scary! It has pictures of people (I believe it's in Africa), very-very-VERY thin people. They're like almost die coz they don't have food to eat. Their body are only bones covered with skin. The pics of the ppl were from a VERY THIN baby until a VERY THIN adult. They beg for food. It's freakin' scary!!! It actually happens in real life. there are actually ppl that are still hungry and they can't afford food until they are starving and become very thin. It scares me soooo much!!!
last thing that happened to me was a bad news. one of my cousin is in the hospital right now. He got infection in his brain. He isn't aware about what is happening around him anymore... He's in the stage of comma-I guess. He can't eat by himself now. The food has 2b liquid. He can't move, he's just lying there, can't help to do anything. I think he feels something hurts him, but he can't speak. His temperature is high, he's sweating but the temperature's still up, and the weird thing is his hands are cold... It is scary!!! he's still young, still 29. He has a life to live... a family to lead... I'm too scary to imagine what could happen to him... if he's cured, what's he gonna b like... but if he's not... oh shit! I don't wanna imagine such thing... It scares me!!!

There are times I find it hard to sleep at night
We are living through such troubled times
And every child that reaches out for someone to hold
For one moment they become my own
And how can I pretend that I don't know what's going on
When every second with every minute another soul is gone

And I believe that in my life I will see
An end to hopelessness or giving up of suffering
And we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up and hear me sing
Stand up for love
I'm inspired and hopeful each and every day
That's how I know that things are gonna change
So how can I pretend that I don't know what's going on
When every second with every minute another soul is gone
And I believe
That in my life I will see
An end to hopelesness of giving up of suffering
And we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up for love
And it all starts right here
And it starts right now
One person stand up there
And the rest will follow
For all the forgotten
For all the unloved
I'm gonna sing this song
And I believe that in my life I will see
An end to hopelessness of giving up of suffering
If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up and sing
Stand up for love
(Stand Up for Love - Destiny's Child)

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Wednesday, November 16, 2005

it feels that it's been so long since my last writing...

I'm not really sure what I'm gonna write about, but hey... let it flow...
pasca Idul Fitri, there are lots of things change... that's what I feel...
I change... well, that's what I feel....
see, before that long Idul Fitri holiday, I had a problem within myself that I hate this one person. In my opinion, I just didn't get the feeling between us. The chemistry just wasn't there. But I didn't feel good. It felt akward when u hate someone and still had to meet him/her everyday. So, when I was still on my holiday, I thought to myself that I'm gonna change after Idul Fitri... and now I feel that I do change... I don't hate that person anymore. I become more openminded to that person. If that person isn't in the mood, I'm just trying my best to look happy, so that person get the good mood back...
Besides that, I feel that, I'm now in the stage of understanding myself. I'm trying to feel myself, my mind... I'm learning about my self. I just realise that if I want to, I can do something great. If I can just be lil' more dilligent, I'm gonna b a whole lot better. I learn that sometime I say the same sentence twice and I'm trying to stop that. I'm trying to think how to talk before I speak. I listen to other people more than I talk...
I do change. I feel that I become more likely an adult. My parents trust me to arrange things... lots of things... I know my job, what I have to do, etc... I feel that I become more responsible. I have to remember all the streets now. I have to know where I stand, so I don't get lost...
Other things change... My cousin, kak Ita, just married. I don't feel a huge diff coz I know her husband (Bang Donny) quite well before, but I can just feel it. It's different.
my friend, a boy that I used to have crush with, change. He finally decided that he doesn't wanna touch me anymore... well, I think he doesn't wanna touch any girls before he gets married and I believe he's just gonna touch his own wife. 'touch' here means real touch... he doesn't wanna shake my hands anymore... oh well, I hope he'll be fine...
My other cousin is in the hospital. It is a huge change. Many members of my family have to go back and forth from home to the hospital. We are double tired right now. He-my sick cousin-change. He was a good boy before... but I guess he was in a deeeeeeppp depression, so he is sick now... Hopefully something like that is never gonna happen to me or the other members of my family again.
And the situation tonite is change. It's beautiful outside. very. trust me! It's a full moon. The moon is beautiful, it's really bright. Probably when we turn off all the street lights, the road is still gonna b bright... subhanallah... It's gorgeus outside...
Too bad that in canada or in another western countries it's winter right now... Thank God there's no more winter for me in Indonesia... well, my friend, have fun with the snow...
hmmm... I was gonna write something else... but I kinda forgot... and i don't know how to put them in a good arrangement of paragraph...
oh well, I'm just gonna write something else later...
Oh God... I wish I could change and become more dilligent...
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Saturday, November 05, 2005

do u actually deserve what u get?

I sometimes think about that...
In my city, Bandung, there is some test to do before u get into a good highschool(like my highschool). You have to get some particular high mark to get in. That's when people call u 'pure blood'... well, just like in Harry Potter...
Of course, there's gotta b some 'half-blood's. yup! there are some 'half-blood's... they are people who don't get in by high mark, but by money... In the second semester every year, many people want to go in to good highschool, but becoz they don't have enough mark, they 'pay' the school to get accepted... and they actually get in! that's crazy, isn't it?
as a 'pure blood', I hate that system. I sometime think about that... do they actually deserve what they get?! it isn't fair! I tried so hard-study hard-to get a high mark... but they didn't! they never really tried! they just use their money to do anything! I hate that!
same thing with my relatives that think my parents is a daycare... It's true! bukannya gue gak ikhlas ato apa... but my dad tried so hard-work really hard- to be someone like this... he worked hard, he started from the very bottom of his career, and he actually deserve what he got now, I think... but my other relatives always ask my parents to take care of their children. They wanted their children to experience stuff, expensive stuff-to b exact... gue bukannya nyombong ato apa loh... but I do experience expensive stuff bcoz of my parents' hard work...
and I think my cousins don't deserve those expensive stuff... I mean, if they want expensive stuff, ask their parents to work hard and buy them those expensive stuff! don't ask my parents to buy it for them!
really, I think people have to start to think about themselves... do they actually deserve what they get? do WE actually deserve what WE get? do we work really hard to get what we want??? do we work it out by ourselves and without 'ngemis' ma orang lain???
good stuff to think about, eh?

Friday, November 04, 2005

the traditions...

Akhirnya, teman-teman....
Hari ini hari kedua Lebaran... well, Idul Fitri...
hmmm... is this 'lebaran' and 'Idul Fitri' thingy really a big deal? Yeah, people say Lebaran is what u call the tradition of buying new stuff(clothes, shoes, etc), and eating a lot. Idul Fitri is the day after one month of Ramadhan when u say ur sorry and u forgive everyone... Kembali pada fitrahnya, gitu katanya...
For myself, that difference doesn't really bothering me. I do agree to both saying, so for all of my friends: SELAMAT IDUL FITRI, maafin aku lahir batin ya... MET LEBARAN SMUA!!
waduh, gak ada deh satu kata yang bisa ngegambarin gmn senengnya aku akhirnya bs ngerasain hari raya ini di Indonesia lagi, bareng ama kluargaku... maklum lah, taun lalu kan aku lebaran di Kanada... iya, emang di kanada itu byk orang Islamnya, tapi kan beda aja rasanya, suasananya... makanya aku bersyukur banget dah dikasih kesempatan ama Allah untuk bisa lebaranan sama sluruh kluarga lagi di Indo...
buat temen2ku yg tinggal di luar negeri, khususnya yg di daerah barat dan jauh dari orang tua, sabar ya teman... aku ngerti kok rasanya gmn...
ngomong2 soal lebaran, banyaaaaakkkk banget tradisi yang udah mengakar di Indonesia...
mudik, takbiran di malem takbiran, makan ketupat (ato makan makanan lain khas daerah masing2, seperti: ketupat ketan, buras, dll), shalat Ied rame2, pake baju baru, salam2an, minta maaf ma ortu dan org2 lain, makan kue yang banyaaaaakkk, sampe dapet ato ngasih salam tempel...
tapi, gara2 perkembangan zaman, ada aja tradisi-tradisi baru yang bermunculan...
pas bulan Ramadhan, acara pas sahur tambah banyak dan beragam. pas lebaran, setiap stasiun tv nayangin acara nyanyi2 lagu Islam(nasyid) dan acara lawak... yang lagi ngetrend bgt skarang adalah nonton bajaj bajuri... sumpah, tu acara funky abis!!!
nah, mnurutku ada tradisi yang udah bbrp taun blakangan ini wajib dilakuin di hari lebaran ataupun bbrp hr sebelumnya... guess what? ngirim sms ucapan selamat lebaran plus minta maaf adlh jwbannya...
beneran deh... hal ini nih udah terbukti dengan sepinya jalanan di Bandung pas malem takbiran kemaren... aku ngerti klo emang byk orang yg gak mudik krn kenaikan bbm dll, tapi bbrp taun yg lalu, berdasarkan pengalamanku, kalo lwt jl. dago pas mlm takbiran tuh mobil gak pernah bisa jalan... well, bisa sih, tapi merayapnya laaaaammmmaaaaa bgt!!! kyk mlm mingguan aja...
tapi mlm takbiran kmaren, aku lewat dago jam 1/2 9 mlm dan gak ada orang(hiperbolically)!!! gila! gak ada org yg takbiran, yg heboh2 pake bedug dan lain sbagenya... instead of takbiran, orang2 pd heboh ngirim sms slamat lebaran, terbukti dengan siiiiibbbbuuukkknya provider hp. sodara2ku mo ngirim sms aja gak nyampe2, soalnya (hampir)smua org disluruh Indonesia kyknya barengan sms slamet lebarannya... aku aja masih nrima sms ampe jam 12 mlm!(thx y, win... gpp kok sms j segitu, ak ngerti klo providernya emang sibuk bgt...)dan lagi, pas aku bangun jam 1/2 5 pagi, 2 sms dah nunggu...(thx y diah ama faisal...)
yah... gpp sih terbentuk tradisi2 baru... buktinya gr2 sms lebaran ini, aku jadi smsan lagi ama temen smsanku yg dulu... kangen juga ama dya ternyata... dah lama bgt g smsan ma dya... (rifQ, ketemuan yuuuuuukkkkkk!!!!makan bareng ato jalan bareng gitu....) tapi, sayangnya aku kehilangan jejak mantanku tercinta... (mantan, dimana lu? klo lu lagi baca, sms gw doooong.... kok ganti no hp g blg2 sih? ato e-mail ak aj gmn? d_loebis@hotmail.com)
well, sudah lah... sodara2ku yg dari Medan (gile! smua org yg baca blogku tau bibit-bebet-bootku dong???hehehe!)dah nyampe tuh... harus nemenin dulu...
whoa!!! one big party after another is coming up, people!!!